I feel a little distant from you guys a lot because on this blog, of late, I keep talking about places or food or people. There isn’t really much juice on myself & this may or may not, ultimately, make you feel like you can no longer relate to me. And with that, I feel like my role as a
blogger writer is defeated. I am not a blogger (see the strikethrough I made in the previous sentence?). Or at least, I don’t want to be one anymore.
A blogger inevitably means that my writing is confined to a certain medium, like a blog- and gosh, I really don’t want that. I want to keep writing, in every & any form or genre, with the main motive to make my readers to not only be informed of something (e.g. when I write about something so factual) but also experience all kinds of emotions through my words- please resonate with my stories again! And my first effort to reclaim this is by sharing an at-spur-of-moment-decision-piece tonight. It’s an insight into something equally private & public in everyone’s life: A Love story. My Love Story.
2013- We met
Naim & I first crossed paths in the most unromantic way you could ever imagine- a Scholarship assessment camp! And believe me when I say that this camp was NOT meant to be all roses & chocolates. For one, my future boyfriend never noticed my existence although we must have been in the same room at least once in that 4 days program. But it wasn’t like I was all over him the first time I saw him anyway (flips hair) so we were pretty even. My eyes at that time, only settled for Chinese looking men who are tall & skinny. Oh… especially them skinny guys! But I am lying if I told you that I never found Naim attractive. He had braces on, which was extremely cute, but his most attractive asset to me was, is and will always be his smile. Ahhh and especially when he starts laughing- I swear I can stare at him for ages hahaha (ok so now is probably the best time for you to get a bucket because that was just the start of all things cheesy :p ) Hotel Corus, the site of our assessment camp, was the last time I saw him. But eventually, we were both awarded the scholarship and in August the following year…
2014- We talked
We went to KYUEM for our A Levels.
In our first week of orientation, I was playing frisbee with a bunch of friends and he was coincidently, by the field too. And after that, as they say is history! We didn’t immediately talk straight after the frisbee incident. In fact, I don’t remember that day at all but Naim claimed that that day was the first time he noticed me. I guess in his head, he must’ve said: ‘Hey… I think that girl is cute! I should date her.‘ HAHAHAHA. But in all seriousness tho, that was exactly what builded up right away. And things were obviously so much easier because we were in a class together and his dorm was really close to mine, & being the smart boy he is, he utilised all these advantages to its best! Every Tuesday, we’d have our Pure Math class at 8 and somehow, every time I got out from my dorm to class, I would bump into him and we’d end up walking to class together. The first few times did seemed coincidental but when this became a weekly thing, I grew suspicious! After realising that, it didn’t took me long to piece the puzzle. The ‘coincidental’ meet up, superly coordinated WhatsApps (so if I replied say, one hour late, he’d do the same) and red-faced Naim when we conversed- to name a few- were all clues that led to one simple conclusion: he must like me. I remember verifying that statement with Mizan hahaha and luckily, he said it was true! oh my, couldn’t imagine the amount of embarrassment I would have faced if he had said ‘No Fie… you ni perasan betul!’ And soon, our first term at KYUEM ended and I remember us talking a little over the Christmas holiday, but the whole time I was still playing the whole ‘hard to get’ card because (1) he didn’t fit to my category haha (2) I felt like we didn’t have a lot to talk about (note that Naim was really shy talking to girls then, which is actually really cute!)
2015- We first dated
On April 11th, we went on our first date. And again, this wasn’t at all romantic and I don’t really think it was like a date date because: (1) I self-invited myself hahahaha (2) it was a Stand Up Comedy Show and I had no idea who the fish was Russell Peters. But to make my life easier, let’s just declare that it was a date ok because we did had those cliche first date dinner thing! Anyways, I went out of the show exhausted from all the fake laughing acts I had to put on. I couldn’t get 90% of Russell Peter’s reference but Naim, who sat beside me at the show, was literally laughing his heads off! I obviously didn’t want to look like I was not cool so I played along and pretended that I knew what was going on. But eventually, Naim realised that I was clueless so we spent what-was-supposed-to-be-the-first-romantic-talk-about-yourself-date clarifying the 90% of Russell Peter’s jokes I didn’t understand hahahaha. And after that, things escalated pretty quickly. A lot of people in KYUEM already knew (trust me, things spread really fast in that college) of our ‘date’, so there were some social expectations of us being an item. However, our relationship didn’t ease up as smoothly because all the while I was unofficially with Naim, I had a pretty complicated relationship with one of my guy friend. In the end, I had to inevitably choose and I think we all know who I ended up with. Please understand that I am not proud of this whole Twilight part of my life, and in fact, I am really ashamed of it because my position left someone stabbed in the heart. But it also didn’t seem fair to leave this vital chunk of info out of my Love Story. Naim & I finally became a ‘thing’ after the love triangle drama subsided. This was probably in June/July of 2015. Neither of us officially asked each other to be the boyfriend or girlfriend, so we don’t have an anniversary date to celebrate that (which is a HUGE relief to Naim’s wallet hahaha). But I guess we both kind of just settled in each other’s company and knew that we wanted to be exclusive, albeit not saying it out loud. We said those 3 words 8 letters to each other (not too sure when but I am so sure it wasn’t in person hahaha) and again, the rest is history!
2016- We flew
The first half of 2016 was really crazy. It was the University applications & exams season so our dates shifted from the Movies to the Library (I think we visited most study spots in KL haha). And I am so so glad that I had him throughout those tough times of rejections & disappointments & stress. I was really at my rock bottom in March that year and he’d just drop everything to listen to me. His gift, aside from his Colgate smile, is listening. I looove to tell Naim every single detail of my life and although I am not too sure that he actually enjoys them (well, I’m sure he does), he listens (and even remembers) every single bit of it. There was one time, my ‘reporting’ skills got a little too intense that I started calling him every hour hahahaha yet he made it through <3 The silver lining behind all those difficult times we faced was our flight tickets to London that September.
2017- ‘We’ continues
He now studies at UCL, while I am in LSE and the best part is that our Universities are really close (which is a HUGE relief because I don’t think that I can fathom the idea of us studying apart omg!) As of writing this, we’ve been together for almost two years and I’d like to believe what we have is really something else, and part of the reason I feel this way is because we are each other’s first love. We are also pretty different but same in some ways and I guess that’s what ‘spices’ up our relationship. To be frank, I can’t imagine being with someone the complete opposite as I am- someone who doesn’t enjoy working out or going on adventures yet I also can’t be with a person 100% identical to my attitude- especially the part where I am impatient. I know that you don’t really like to read, unless it’s some Technology or Finance stuff, but if you happen to read this page just know that I love you so so much!!! Thank you for all the times you supported what I do and listened to my first world problems and be really patient on MGMs aka Monthly General Marahs (this is an inside joke) and loved & cared for me and the list can go on till the moon. I genuinely hope that you’d end up being my first & last love in this life <3
I love you Naim Iman. Always have and always will <3 <3 <3
Hope our story sheds a different light on Love. The important thing to remember here is that love will come- no matter of age. I waited almost 20 years to finally call someone my boyfriend, and heck, I am super grateful I wasn’t committed earlier!
Here are some photos of us (trust me there are a gazillion but I can’t share them all cause Naim actually likes our relationship to be exclusive to just us, which is pretty darn cute if you think about it hehe :p ) to end this post:
TELL ME YOUR FIRST LOVE STORY in the comments section! I’d love to hear them!
Oh and watch my latest video on Youtube here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qRYG8V8F7Co
Stay Quirky, Fie <3